Breastfeeding – Volume 2


Well as you know, MissMostyn has arrived! Whilst in hospital I tried breastfeeding and this time around we did manage it! I was so pleased!

However I still couldn’t get the positioning right on my own and so depended a lot on the midwives to help.

By Sunday evening i was exhausted because MissMostyn would cry whenever I put her down. She wanted to be on me constantly. I cried so much and got myself into such a state that I couldn’t think of breastfeeding her and having no sleep.

So after a discussion with hubby we decided to opt for bottle feeds again. It doesn’t seem to have done any harm to Little Miss.

When I told the midwives about my decision they said that they were there to support me whatever my decision was but that I should remember the benefits of breastfeeding.

After coming home my milk supply appeared. Holy shit I have never had anything so painful in my life! (That’s a lie – childbirth was way more painful!).

I debated about trying to breastfeed again to try and ease the pain. Also whenever I hold MissMostyn to me she wiggles her way down to my chest. I think she probably would take to it well.

I’ve suffered the guilt of her looking at me wanting food. I feel like such a bitch denying her what she should be getting.

And I know I’m being selfish. Completely selfish. But the truth is, I’m happier now that I’ve made the decision. And I firmly believe that a happy mami makes for a happy baby!

You know what, she seems happy enough with bottles and is feeding brilliantly! Hubby can help with the bottles so we both can get some sleep.

So why am I still feeling guilty? 

A Cornish Mum

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  1. 4th August 2015 / 11:53 pm

    You feel guilty because of all that we read in the press! Plenty of perfectly healthy babies have been breast fed so get rid of the guilt! Dr Holly’s orders :p that said, sounds like the hospital didn’t make you feel guilty this time round – I know that they were bad last time round for that. All the best to you all xxx

    • Becster
      11th August 2015 / 9:51 pm

      No the hospital didn’t give me the guilt trip this time around – maybe everyone had complained! I know I did! The guilt has now gone! I’m so glad she’s bottle fed now because she’s constantly feeding – I think I’d permanently have my boobs on show if she was breastfed! x

  2. 5th August 2015 / 11:06 am

    My mum and my sister both were unable to produce enough milk for breastfeeding and both were made to feel ridiculously guilty about it. When my sister had her first child, she wanted to breastfeed him SO badly, but nothing came for days and she couldn’t leave him going hungry! When her milk supply finally did appear, it was tiny and definitely not enough to satisfy her son, so she had to opt for bottle feeding but I remember the midwives making her feel really bad for not breast feeding. Chances are, when I have children I also won’t be able to breastfeed but it hasn’t done me, my sister or her 3 children any harm, so hopefully they won’t be able to make me feel guilty!

    Sian xx Cakey Dreamer

    • Becster
      11th August 2015 / 9:47 pm

      It’s awful how horrid it can make you feel! I really sympathise with your mum and sister. At the end of the day, baby needs to be fed and whichever method you can/choose to opt for is the best for your situation – so why do people want to make you feel bad for feeding your baby!?

  3. 11th August 2015 / 9:15 pm

    At least you tried,I hope that feeling goes away soon.

    • Becster
      11th August 2015 / 9:36 pm

      Thanks – I think this week has made me realise that I’m actually quite glad she’s bottle fed. She’s been constantly feeding this week!

  4. MummyandMonkeys
    13th August 2015 / 6:58 pm

    I gave up after 7 days with my first and felt guilty for ages, but you know what your right a happy mummy makes a happy baby. You have just got to do what is right for you. Thanks for linking to #picknmix

    • Becster
      14th August 2015 / 4:16 pm

      I firmly believe that I do! With LittleMiss (my eldest) the transformation was instant! We were both so much happier once we’d switched over.

  5. 13th August 2015 / 8:04 pm

    I couldn’t feed my first and managed with my second, at the end of the day it’s whatever makes you and baby happy in my opinion! 🙂 Don’t feel guilty hon just enjoy the newborn days they go way too quickly! Thanks for linking up to #PicknMix

    Stevie x

    • Becster
      14th August 2015 / 4:18 pm

      I really do believe that a happy mami makes for a happy baby!

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